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i'm stuck
and don't mind being so
i'm too afraid to move forward
and too afraid to stay behind
secretly i sigh that delays made are out of my hands
but miserable that i will be left back
the world's most preciously deemed
i waste without outward regret
time and money galore
has gone and i bemoan the reason to need more
silently i must remain as in of me
meaninglessly dreading the festering
that seems only to point towards ruthless consequences
making my senses acute and numb and to sense no more
yet more aware am i of this urgent whisper of idle
as i am at the quickening and ever-knocking of my heart
and the foolish inability to do nothing more than to move forward
and remain tormentedly stuck...