Sivajiyum Appavum.
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Thankyou Gopal for sending me message asking me why I have not visited the thread since long.
This time with so much pain, I am recollecting some incidents which made me coined inseperably with Sivaji Sir.
My father suddenly passed away on May 6th this year. He was instrumental for my early liking of Sivaji. There are N number of reasons, primary being, my father used to resemble Sivaji Ganesan to a reasonably good extent, esp when young.
Appa used to take me to Sivaji movies when there are bhakthi movies screened in nearby theatres.
I think the earliest memory of Sivaji for me would be ThiruviLaiyadal, Thiruvarutchelvar and Saraswathi Sabadham. I watched it in theatres. I used to think sivaji is next to god. In my mind, Sivaji would fit in the role of Lord shiva so well. That is how it all started.
And then I remember ooti varai uravu. IT was fun watching Sivaji doing light role. I was too young to understand the play or story but LOVED just seeing him and his smile.
Most memorable incident was "Andhaman kadhali". This time it was not just appa and me but also my mom. I remember he cycled us to the theatre. There he was in big screen, my dad, typically my dad, and all I could understand was someone almost a look-alike of my dad, is going uphill and in danger to be bombed and he could die....anytime. I knew my dad was near me, but I could not bear seeing Sivaji in danger. I cried, quietly. Later when it was "all is well that ends well" we rode back home, I kept looking at appa, again and again feeling happy that my dad is safe.
My dad........left us so suddenly just split seconds he joined Lord krishna/Shiva. A healthy man until the previous second, good for him, he would not have known any pain or fear.
My dad...left me. Everytime I think I see Sivaji song, my memory would be stronger of my dad. These days I actually avoid listening or seeing any songs, esp old songs. Someday I might heal and get back.
Dad was a fan of KaNNadasan, Sivaji, Rajnikanth and Ajith.
Thanks I dont know how much relevent this is to this thread. I just wanted to pen my feelings of Dad and Sivaji twined together. Thankyou dear Gopal for wondering why I have not visited the thread. I felt so moved.
Thankyou.